AFTERNOON THOUGHT

My oldman always told me that I should  being nice to other people. I also have be polite, dynamic, tolerant, loose, silly, mature, firm, reliant, independent etc depends on who I am with. For all these time, I try to treat people with my best even if I realize that I can never pleased everyone. People said that I'm too naive and too easy to believe in someone. It's not that I'm being naive, I just make myself to see everything in the bigger picture. I believe that everybody have their positive side and with a little kindness maybe they'll make their positive side even brighter. That's why I love being kind, being kind is that nice, make everything seemed lighter. That's why I never understand why people hurt another. Moreover I don't understand why someone hurt me when I didn't do anything that hurt them. Maybe I should re-think about what my oldman said, because it's nice to being nice but it's wiser to be wise.

COFFEE THOUGHT

I've been thinking about stuff lately.

At some point I realize that I've done too much for you that the only next possible step to do is to stop, leave you alone, and walk away. It's not like I'm giving up, It's not like I shouldn't try. It's just I have to draw the line of determination from desperation. 

Maybe I'll meet you again, when we are slightly older and our mind less hectic, and I'll be right for you and you'll be right for me.

But right now, I am chaos to your thoughts and you are poison to my heart.

MOVING ON

You deal. You survive. You grow up. And you remember these big/little hardships because they make you human.

Even the hard times are part of your life story. If you acknowledge them and move past them, they eventually add up to the experience that makes you wise.

NOT PLAYER, JUST FOOLING AROUND

How old I am? Well, people said my age is a perfect age to settle down. But I hardly still couldn't imagine what my marriage life would be.. I can stand with the couple thingies that I would may done with my husband, but I can't stand for something that would tied me up.

Commitment.

Somebody ever told me, that the most important thing with a commitment is not to break it. It even make me scarier though.. I'm the one who always broke up every commitment that I ever had.

Is this too hard to understand that I don't  want to rush anything? You know, I just wanna enjoy my single life and be friends with many men that when I decided to go on a relationship, I already know who will get my full commitment.

I know it sounds so arrogant or even skanky. But I just wanna choose the best so I can spend my whole life with no single regret. I'm not a player, I'm just fooling around.. It's not that I don't want, it's just I'm not ready...yet :)

SOULMATE

"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit. And that's everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah, that's too painful. soul mates, they came to your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you and then leave.

A soul mate purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacle and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master.."

-Elizabeth Gilbert, at Eat, Pray, Love.

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I'm so tottaly agree with miss Elizabeth.. Well, according to her thought it means I already met my soul mate and that's why I set him free.. Well, you know who he was :)

DUTY

I'm going to talk about hijab tonight.. No, I'm not being religious or even try to affect whoever read this to wear hijab. No, No, I'm not that kind of person. I'm a huge fans of freedom.

Well anyway, I just feel I wanna write something about it..

First time I ever wore hijab was when I was in high school.. I decided to wore hijab simply by hearing my sister read one of chapter on holy Al Quran.. It said :

"No woman shall smell the fragrance of heaven when she doesn't cover up her "aurat".."

I started to think.. How am I supposed to get in to the heaven while I'm not allowed to even smell it's fragrance.. That, I made the best decision of my life so far.. To wore hijab and cover my aurat..

Wore hijab doesn't changed many things up until now. I still me, a boyish girl who like to laugh. I myself, don't and maybe never understand why people always think that a women with hijab is kinda all saint and shouldn't do anything bad and why if a woman with hijab does anything bad or wrong, people would accused her for not sticking with her hijab. I mean, women  without hijab certainly cannot do anything bad either and on contrary, I didn't say that a woman with hijab is allowed to do anything wrong..

What I'm trying to say is.. Hijab, is a must, a duty, and an order from allah to be obeyed by Moslem women despite of her  behavior. 

For me, wearing hijab doesn't mean you have to be all saint or you are an all saint woman.. Allah never said that only good woman or saint woman should wear hijab.. Allah said, all moslem women..

So whatever a hijab woman do especially when she do bad things, don't ever mentioned her hijab.. Because you know, it has nothing to do with the hijab and it's not our job to judge. And we should remember, at least she try to obeyed the order to prove that she love Allah..

Yes.. for me, wearing a hijab and covering my aurat is the simplest way to prove that I'm proud to be a moslem woman and to prove my love to Allah.

You my friend, what have you do to prove your love to your Almighty? :)