SOUL SISTER

My sister is probably the best gift my oldman ever gave me so far. I don't know what would I do without her. She is my best friend, my worst enemy, my partner in crime (especially when we tease our brother :p) and perhaps she is practically my mother. Yes, since our mother left us when my age was just turned third, she took care of me and my brother. She was just a kid too you know, because she was just turned seventh at that time.

Having a sister like her is the best feeling ever. It's like I always have a best friend, a someone, who never leave me. Someone who always care for me, rooting for me, trust me, support me emotionally and financially (ehm :p)  no matter how many times we fought and annoyed each other.

This is my first thought about her, but this wouldn't be the last. I feel like I'm out of words when I talked about her. Not because of  I've nothing to say anymore, it's just sooooo much to tell that I could never write them down at once.

I love you, silly sister :*

FEATURED

Featured in popflats's Instagram.. yayyy! I looove their shoes.. they're so comfy and playful at the same time. These daisy strings I wore is my favorite, they goes with every outfit.. Just like I said before, flowers never fail.. kiss :*

LIVE

I used to love concert, I love to sing together, I love to be in the crowd, but lately I feel I'm too old for that thing. haha

The last two concerts I was attended was not really concerts, those was more like live music at a cafe where I sat down, sipping some baileys and enjoy the music. However, I still didn't want to miss those moments, so here they goes, some picture I captured those night.. :)

Sheila On 7 at Rolling Stones Cafe

Sandy Sandoro at Rolling Stones Cafe

Sore at Jazzy Night

Pure Saturday at Jazzy Night

Payung Teduh on Jazzy Night

COFFEE THOUGHT

I've been thinking about stuff lately.

At some point I realize that I've done too much for you that the only next possible step to do is to stop, leave you alone, and walk away. It's not like I'm giving up, It's not like I shouldn't try. It's just I have to draw the line of determination from desperation. 

Maybe I'll meet you again, when we are slightly older and our mind less hectic, and I'll be right for you and you'll be right for me.

But right now, I am chaos to your thoughts and you are poison to my heart.

NOT PLAYER, JUST FOOLING AROUND

How old I am? Well, people said my age is a perfect age to settle down. But I hardly still couldn't imagine what my marriage life would be.. I can stand with the couple thingies that I would may done with my husband, but I can't stand for something that would tied me up.

Commitment.

Somebody ever told me, that the most important thing with a commitment is not to break it. It even make me scarier though.. I'm the one who always broke up every commitment that I ever had.

Is this too hard to understand that I don't  want to rush anything? You know, I just wanna enjoy my single life and be friends with many men that when I decided to go on a relationship, I already know who will get my full commitment.

I know it sounds so arrogant or even skanky. But I just wanna choose the best so I can spend my whole life with no single regret. I'm not a player, I'm just fooling around.. It's not that I don't want, it's just I'm not ready...yet :)

LITTLE MONSTER

I'm so madly in love with my little monster, Abiyyu! He is my sister's son and he was born exactly the same date as me.. So I guess he was the best birthday gift my sister ever gave me so far.. :')

He's getting bigger and he just couldn't stop moving or running anywhere unless for drinking his milk or sleep.. I'm always wondering where he keep his energy beneath those little body because we were always gasping our breath just to chased him but he just seemed like wasn't tired at all..hahaha.

Always be healthy and happy, my little monster.. I love you to the moon and back! :')

HOLIDAY YOLI YOLI YOLI DAAY

Off to Bandung last week and had a superrrrrrr greaaatttt time there.. I met my friends and went to fun places.. I Looove you fellas *lovestruck*

GREEN GREEN GRASS HOME

Don't you just love the nature? The trees, the land, the smell of the air? I just couldn't get enough of them.. :)

*photos taken at De' Ranch Lembang

Anyway, I've been dealing with my mood swing lately.. Gezz I've become such an asshole, annoying and demanding brats.. Aaaa I really don't know what to do, hence I'm so sorry to anyone who get annoyed by me.. huhu :(

SOULMATE

"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit. And that's everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah, that's too painful. soul mates, they came to your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you and then leave.

A soul mate purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacle and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master.."

-Elizabeth Gilbert, at Eat, Pray, Love.

marks and spencer outer and bag, forever21 denim, popflats shoes

I'm so tottaly agree with miss Elizabeth.. Well, according to her thought it means I already met my soul mate and that's why I set him free.. Well, you know who he was :)

GOODBYE FINN

I still couldn't believe that Finn Hudson already gone..

When the first time I heard about Finn's death, I thought it was Finn Hudson, the character. But then later I knew it wasn't Finn Hudson, It was Cory Monteith's death.. which means no more Finn and no more Cory.

Goshhh.. He was my favorite character in Glee.. Maybe the only reason why I love to watched Glee was him before I began to attracted with another character..

I can't imagine Lea's devastation, I hope I never had to feel what she feel..

Be Strong, Lea.. he's only yours now, in another way.. :(

FOOL

Regarding to my last post, I was kinda embarrassed on how I was so foolish.. So I am sad, okay.. So I am on my low position, so what?

I never be able to hide my feeling towards something.. Up until now, I don't even know if it is good or bad to have that kind of ability. So I took sometime alone at my rent-room to express my sad feeling and then I decided to go home and meet my family.. 

It is magical when I meet my sister and my oldman I felt sooo much better without them did anything.. We were just talked about everything and poof! All my tears drained away..

I believe somebody ever said "at the time of test, family is the best" 

Hey man, whoever you are, I agree :)